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Becoming Real in Your Fifties

I vividly remember the moment a neighbor shared she was celebrating her 50th birthday, and I was shocked to hear that number, as any thirty-something would be, right? It is halfway to a hundred after all. That moment was a long time ago, and now I have not only rolled into my fifties but am moving through them. I have much to be grateful for each day. As my children have grown to become self- sufficient adults, I have few regrets but rather a sense of urgency to do more, see more and be more. There must be something about freeing up all that parental energy and worry time it took to raise children.

In many ways, my current age still shocks me. It is as if I put my head down in my thirties to do the heavy lifting of parenting and now with my youngest off at college, I truly can lift my head and look around. It feels like my life has been on hold and Iā€™m just getting back to it after roughly two decades. It leaves me wondering what is next. I will need to harness some of that energy, previously used to parent, to embrace the wondering, be in the moment, take some chances and grab some joy just for me or at least I will try after getting over the half century thing šŸ˜Š.

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Lucky Enough

Today I feel lucky enough. There is nothing out of the ordinary going on other than a sense of contentment that has washed over me. No, things are not perfect. I have stress and worries which always remain, but today I see things with a bit more clarity and choose to ride this positive stream of thought. Catching these moments can be tricky, but when I sense one coming on, I do all I can to hold on to it, much like trying to hang on to a lovely dream from which you have been awakened too soon.

These moments create a feeling of lightness, as well as positive and hopeful energy which I know if I want it to continue I will need to stay in my mind. I choose to reject negative thoughts such as comparing myself to others and looking longingly at things that I think will make me happier. I choose to stay off social media as I know these thoughts/activities may prevent me from feeling more happiness and joy today. I choose to move through this moment on my terms with a less reactive mindset.

I remind myself that I have the choice to decide how I want to think about other people, places and things. I know that being gentle but firm in redirecting my thoughts is a skill that improves with practice. Even under incredibly stressful circumstances, I can choose how I want to think about something. Today is a lucky day.